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I got married on Saturday. Still haven’t quite processed everything since it’s been a whirlwind of parties and diners and saying goodbye to all our friends who traveled here for the event. I’m exhausted, elated and have come down with the cold lots of folks have been getting lately. I’m going to sleep for the next 5 days or so. I’ve canceled all my burn sf and Soulcycle classes this week to try and hit the reset button. Despite feeling physically spent and sad from the many goodbyes I’ve said in the past two days I’m looking over to my right in bed and I see my family. I see the dr. I see the man who has changed my life, who has believed in me and made me the person I am today.

And I am forever grateful and forever in love.

(Photo credit: Colson Griffith)
I got married on Saturday. Still haven’t quite processed everything since it’s been a whirlwind of parties and diners and saying goodbye to all our friends who traveled here for the event. I’m exhausted, elated and have come down with the cold lots of folks have been getting lately. I’m going to sleep for the next 5 days or so. I’ve canceled all my burn sf and Soulcycle classes this week to try and hit the reset button. Despite feeling physically spent and sad from the many goodbyes I’ve said in the past two days I’m looking over to my right in bed and I see my family. I see the dr. I see the man who has changed my life, who has believed in me and made me the person I am today.

And I am forever grateful and forever in love.

— 22 hours ago with 5 notes
#wedding 
Binge watching RuPaul’s Drag Race is our recent favorite downtime activity. #truelove

Binge watching RuPaul’s Drag Race is our recent favorite downtime activity. #truelove

— 2 weeks ago with 2 notes
#truelove 
A couple of months ago Soulcycle reached out to me because one of their NY riders was an editor at Prevention Magazine who read my soulcycle blog post and wanted to feature me in their “Better Than Ever” column. I had lost 30 lbs and @soulcycle had become my gateway drug to group fitness. No more long, tedious and un-motivating hours at the gym on the elliptical for me which proved to be useless in my struggle to drop not only my weight but my triglycerides and glucose. I always stayed far away from group fitness as there was nothing more intimidating. It was high school gym class all over again. Until I discovered soul and @burnpilatessf which fosters such a positive environment where I could stop feeling so self-conscious so I could do the work I needed to do with supportive people cheering me on, not judging me. And now? Now I feel unstoppable. I’ve always secretly wanted to be a ninja-ballerina-athlete. I may never be any of those things but I can train like one and that’s just fine with me #Soulcycle #burnsf #pilates #fitspo #fitness #bodypositive #preventionmagazine #soulfam

A couple of months ago Soulcycle reached out to me because one of their NY riders was an editor at Prevention Magazine who read my soulcycle blog post and wanted to feature me in their “Better Than Ever” column. I had lost 30 lbs and @soulcycle had become my gateway drug to group fitness. No more long, tedious and un-motivating hours at the gym on the elliptical for me which proved to be useless in my struggle to drop not only my weight but my triglycerides and glucose. I always stayed far away from group fitness as there was nothing more intimidating. It was high school gym class all over again. Until I discovered soul and @burnpilatessf which fosters such a positive environment where I could stop feeling so self-conscious so I could do the work I needed to do with supportive people cheering me on, not judging me. And now? Now I feel unstoppable. I’ve always secretly wanted to be a ninja-ballerina-athlete. I may never be any of those things but I can train like one and that’s just fine with me #Soulcycle #burnsf #pilates #fitspo #fitness #bodypositive #preventionmagazine #soulfam

— 3 weeks ago with 11 notes
#pilates  #fitspo  #soulfam  #preventionmagazine  #fitness  #soulcycle  #bodypositive  #burnsf 
Early morning bday ride @soulcycle

Early morning bday ride @soulcycle

— 1 month ago with 3 notes
"it feels pretty amazing to get to this point in life where I can look back and say “I may have been society’s definition of prettier back in my 20s but I was also society’s definition of a hot mess.” Cheers for growing and learning!"
from an online discussion with colette and peeps on her #thisbelovedbody project on getting older.
— 1 month ago
#thisbelovedbody  #aging  #beauty  #BodyPositive 
31 push-ups for 31 days. Up to 11 on my toes before I drop to knees. 

In other news, I’m still hating the wedding dress situation and it’s driving me to ice cream and garlic noodles. Unfortunately, I don’t ever think I’ll ever evolve into someone who turns to raw veggies and fruit in times of stress. Do those people even exist? 

The closer it gets to wedding day the more unprepared and crazy I feel. 

I don’t feel like I care as much as I should about all these details like other people do. But since there will be a lot of people looking at me on wedding day and lots of photos… I care about the dress. I care about how I look.

And I hate that.

Ugh.

31 push-ups for 31 days. Up to 11 on my toes before I drop to knees.

In other news, I’m still hating the wedding dress situation and it’s driving me to ice cream and garlic noodles. Unfortunately, I don’t ever think I’ll ever evolve into someone who turns to raw veggies and fruit in times of stress. Do those people even exist?

The closer it gets to wedding day the more unprepared and crazy I feel.

I don’t feel like I care as much as I should about all these details like other people do. But since there will be a lot of people looking at me on wedding day and lots of photos… I care about the dress. I care about how I look.

And I hate that.

Ugh.

— 1 month ago with 6 notes
Totally best day ever so far.

Totally best day ever so far.

— 1 month ago with 3 notes
I totally look like my mom today. Heading to city hall to get our marriage license. Whee!

I totally look like my mom today. Heading to city hall to get our marriage license. Whee!

— 1 month ago with 2 notes