burn class over and done with before the sun comes up. when the alarm first goes off at 5AM i wonder why i constantly do this to myself and think about ignoring it. then i get up, put on my big girl pants and walk to the studio and tell myself that i can always choose to stop and leave whenever i want to. i never do. then the work is done and i am stronger for having done it. at some point during the last and almost always impossible feeling cardio set this morning i realize that when i start to crap out is when something in my brain tells me, “you can’t do this. don’t be ridiculous. it’s almost over so why bother? it’s not like that belly is going anywhere anytime soon.” instead of finding ways to cheat, instead of reaching for my water or slowing down i politely told my brain that i wasn’t finished working out yet and if it wanted to be surly and self depreciating i would greatly appreciate it if it could shut up for at least another 10 minutes until i was done.
working out is more than just moving around really really fast or lifting heavy things. at least for me. it’s an exercise in taking the power away from the part of me that doesn’t believe in myself and putting it towards something else, something better, something more loving. the more i do this the better i feel mentally. the physical change is a given. the muscle definition is a given. the mental shift from self-doubt to self-confidence is where the true work lies and where the biggest payoff is.